Its an early one tonight my love. 26 years. How did you put up with me. You not being here with me looking after us all is just how much how lucky we all were to have you. My outlook on life has changed dramatically. The boys are all grown up now and I'm not there mum. Were all now just looking after each other . They all no how to feed thereselvves. I'm not going to lie my dear I don't know how I'm getting through this. My time with you every day is the nearest I get to a normal life now . I know what you would be telling me but my time I spend with you is the most important thing in my life now. Everything else is just everyday life. No one will ever understand what you meant and mean to me. No one. Ill see you tomorrow my darling. The best 26 years of my life . Love you baby. Xxx