Hi my darling. Christmas went as best as it could with your wish. I did everything that you asked me to do and will continue to do that my love. All of us have issues with how we cope with your loss. I know mine its been going on from the start. I worry about the the boys. Not Kyle. They deal with it a different way . My issues over the last few years doesn't and will never take the pain away. I now and will after the new year and I don't know why that date has to be that. But it is . I have our grandchildren to think about. The boys can look after themselves. Ill try to to change the best I can . But life is a lottery. My time will come to be with you again my love. But hopefully not yet . You know what I mean. My love for you will never be lost. My most precious person in my life. Night Night tina. Xxx